chinese new year

Seriously, I'm really enjoy my chinese new year !

It's simple but FUN ~

Thank you bro for bringing me out !

I met him a few times during these CNY.

Once the moment I look at him, it recall back all the happy memories with him.

I can't denied that I still have the feeling towards him.

I thought I able to ignore him when he is in front of me,

I realize I can't stop looking at him.

Last time we only spent a very short time, but the memories were all so lovely and unforgettable.

It's really suffer these few days.

keep breaking down..

I do not understand myself.

I do not know what I'm thinking or even what I want..

please tell me what should I do?

I really signs of growing tensions between the two people..

I'm crying silently without anyone knowing.

Why I always falling in love to the wrong person and the wrong moment?

Why loving a person it is so suffer?

I'm losing the confidence and the hope of love, when can I really have a lovely relationship?

Why always i'm the person who tolerate and do everything ?

I'm scare to go forward because i'm a terrible coward.

PROBLEMATIC !

Lifeless

I'm Tired !

Not physiacally tired, but mentally...

I felt exhausted, I would just feel like lying on the bed after work..

Especially these few days, my office showrooms having events, it made me more and more tired..

Maybe because of tired, I'm easily get angry and moody.

I did not know why, no one to share, no one to talk and sometime I will fed up to talk with my family.. The more we talked the more we argue..

Chinese new year just now around the corner..

I guess will be another boring day...

Just trying to be happy, act as happy as I can..

I was hoping for a peaceful and simple life, that's all..

No more tears for friend or relationship...

No one would understand, even myself..

I could change all the time..

I'm strong in the outside, but I'm weak inside.

CHEER CELINE !

ENJOY LIFE !

working life

4 of January,

my very first time of working life.

I worked as a admin clerk & customer service assistant.

I'm feeling so lonely inside the office,

because only two people around in the office with me,

manager and marketing only..

My company it's still very new, that's why...

So quiet, as in no human voice other than songs.

I'm facing the computer for almost 10 hours per day.

Today was my third day of working,

temporary my job are searching thing to put on the forum for the company webpage,

clear some data, and playing game also my part of job too.

I'm serious..!

Today I get a new task, manager ask me think for the webpage description..

hhmmmm.. how?

2 hours more to leave the office, I'm so tired and sleepy...

I feel like lying my head down, but CCTV it's just behind me..

I wish that my manager will give me more thing to do, so I wouldn't feel so sleepy..

My manager told me that after the office renovated, most probably it will be more work and more event coming along..

On that time, I guess wouldn't for time sitting there to play facebook and blogging like what I do now.

Can I fall in love?

I'm afraid for getting hurt.

I don't dare to move forward..

I feel insecure...

That's all for today, have to continue my work..