back.

i will stop blogging for a short while...

got some reason and this blog got problem ...

i will back use to my last time blog for temporary...

Ying & Yong

its time to tell out what we feel, right?
we need a talk...
All the times we argue and fight,
I know deep inside that it isn't right.
we, then feel bad and alot of pain.

:: One of the most important of these is the ability to say "I'm sorry". We all make mistakes. Hurting each other from time to time is inevitable especially in a close friendship. Some people are incapable of apologizing, because they are unable to admit that they may have made a mistake. There is no way for a friendship to last without apologies. Saying I'm Sorry in a sincere and compassionate way will preserve your friendship and deepen the bond that your share. ::

everyone will do wrong anything,
if only we willing to say sorry,
we won't have so much problems.
we know how to forgive and forget then everything will be fine !

my feeling:

I'm sorry, friends...
i feel so guilty to both of you.
I don't know what to do, I try so hard to face u all..
i kept trying to ran away from u all, that why i choose to skip school when without exam.
I don't know why, but I still need you all...
recess time, i'm alone. although sometimes got ching, but i will interrupt her doing prefect duty.
even sometimes i choose to stay at class and don't go to recess. i really scare the times to met u all...
your my best friend, I know we can make it through.
lets make this friendship last and make it better and true...
but I am a fool to let this friendship break into three...
I'm going to push aside the past now.
I'm going to be stand out and face it...
you two are my best friend still and my beloved one too !!!
remember the good times and I know we'll make it through.

I miss you all alot ! few weeks already, we treat each other like transparent.
when we got talk, the words com out from out mouth are use to 'boom' each other only.
Remember all the laughs we have together.. hang out happily... gossip and playing together.
Don't you remember?
we said we will appreciate our friendship and we won't leave.
we gone through so many ups and downs.
did u all really wan to break this friendship ?
or else, we can try to fine out the problems and solve it together..
did u two willing to do together with me?
can u two say out how u feel?
can u two forgive me?
i know u two won't so easy to let go this friendship.. am i right?
forget the past and start again, can?!
Hope we're together till the end..

friends,
i still miss you,
i still need you.

PICTURE of 2008

They say that true friendship is rare
An adage that I believe to be true
Genuine friendship is something that I cherish
I am so lucky to have met you.

Our bond is extremely special
It is unique in it's own way
We have something irreplaceable
I love you more and more each day.

We've been through so much together
In so little time we've shared
I will never forget all the moments
that you've shown me how much you cared.

Friends are forever
Especially the bond that you and I possess
I love your fun-filled personality
Somehow you never fail to impress.

The world could use more people like you
it would certainly be a better place
I love everything about you
You are someone I could never replace.

You are always there for me
When my spirits need a little lift
I cannot thank you enough for that
You are truly an extraordinary gift.

You are everything to me and more
I could never express that enough
Life is such a treacherous journey, and
Without you it would be even more tough.

Our story will continue to grow
With each passing day
Because I trust that with you by my side
Everything will always be Okay.

You are so dear to me
You know I will love you until the end
I will always be there for you, and
You will always (and forever) be my best friend.

:: by Margery Wang Best Friend Poems ::

HaPPiness really doesn't exist

i'm back to say goodbye to everyone.
i think i won't post anymore until the end of the day finish pmr.
25 days more to go...
maybe i won't be back to this blog again..

i wish to suffer it on my own its better than sharing with ppl in this blog...
i can't stand for it anymore ;
i had lost everything.

: happiness , trust , friendship , times :

they doesn't know anything...
i'm hard to face u all...
nobody could stand on my side and think...
did u all trying to change anything or u all just want to continue like this?
did u all really feel happier ? *honestly*
no ppl care for this, why did i ?
can everything back to normal? can / cannot
nobody can answer it.

or else, i would consider to give up everything and to be alone.

~GOODBYE~

~ sad + hurt + tears + alone ~
i'm trying my best not to drop down crystal from my eyes anymore.




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SuFFeR

today woke up, my throat not feeling well.
then whole day headache..
my turn to get fever?
whole day just like a death fish ; kept sleep...
i will stay at house for two days until friday exam..
haiz, hope before exam i will recover ...
felt so down.
i haven get ready for trial...
i'm really worried about myself !

problems =(

i'm back !
more than one week i didn't online.
mayb later i will be stop blogging.
friday my school having first trial exam !
i not yet make any preparation on it...
i getting more lazier to study.
i facing alot of problems !

friends...
this days, i dunno what's going on...
we gone through so many ups and downs,
at last we still face the same problems.
i dunno should i tell u all how i feel,
i dunno whether i got make any mistakes or what,
i dunno i got hurt anyone of you,
i just dunno how to face it.
what should i do?
treat this as nothing happen and continue like that?!?
i won't feeling well if continue like that...

.?.?.?.?.?.?.?.?.>>>???

i'm back again !
this few weeks, i lazy to on computer.
until today, my party picture still haven post !
its too many picture d, so i not gonna post all.


yesterday hang out with ching, kenny and kok ann.
we watched 5 pm movie.
THE LAND OF THE LOST !
the movie is damn funny and lame.
after movie, we went to walk walk.
suddenly feel the couple are so annoying, i can just pretend nothing instead of argue with her again.
aeon food is quite limited.
we walked from ground to first floor, first floor to ground,
but we still can't decide what should eat for dinner.
waste about half and hour to decide.
at last, we go sakae sushi.
we didn't eat, sat there and watched ching eat.
around 10 something, ching's sis fetch us go yum cha with her friend at Jeth cafe.
finally, we eat something there.
11 something, went back d.

today, i trying to do some revision for the latih tubi.
just only 15 minute i ter sleep ad.
i really bored of study ! shit ! but trial coming, pmr coming alrdy.
tomorrow onwards till friday, scl having latih tubi.. something like exam..
next week i lazy to go school la...
then trial 1 & 2 ; sc & math exam also coming near and near.

i get my third monthly test result d.
almost all my subject marks getting decrease.
i get an 'A' , but the A is come from PJK. useless subject.
my class position also drop d.
everything drop d !
i started worry about my result.

~ no one can spoiled our friendship ~
this is for Ying.

HAPPY birthday to mySELF

ehehehehe !!!

HAPPY BELATEd BiRTHDaY to MYSElF !!!

i'm officially 15 years old..
i getting older alrdy ! = )

i celebrate my birthday on last saturday with all my friends and family !
i will be upload pic soon !
i was happy of my BBQ party !
thanks you for all my babes and family.

quite alot of ppl wish me this year... even some of them are not close with me also got wish me !
thanks for the wishes !

25/7/2009:
i had a BBQ party on my house.
it is actually were teng and my birthday party.
teng had invite her bkb group's friend and of cause i also had invite alot of my close friend.
8 something, more and more ppl came d.
my house able to accommodate about 40 ppl. geng.
all started enjoy eating and taking pictures !
all of them was so ngam with my sis (vivien). especially girls.
they was keep calling my sis, vivien jie jie ! haha.
about 10 something, we blow cake.
thanks for the 5 MPK who giving a nice cake for me ; which was kenny, kok ann, edmund, pang shen and ah nam.
that my favourite tiramisu cake from biz cafe.
we took alot of pictures !
after the party, most of them going back d.
thank you for sis, edwin, ching, yee jing, tien, chee yen and ah yen help me clean up my house.

thanks for who coming on that day :
ching, ying, yong, yee jing, zhi chirng,sammy, shu yi,tien,wen shuang,chee yen, ah yen,kwang yaw, thiam chai,kenny,edmund,kok ann,ah nam, pang shen, kenny lai,beng tat, zhen ann, soon keat, pan yong, wai lun, tkr...

and also man teng's friends !

26/7/2009:
when green box with family.

27/7/2009:
go school as usual ! XD

surprise... =(

every year of my birthday, i also will get a BIG surprise..
but is not a happy thing.
it is a hurt thing to know about it.

i'm tired !
i can't go anything for it !
just pretend nothing?
it is really hard to keep inside my heart.
no one i can share with.
this is real privacy.
unexpected they will do that !
how come?
what should i do?
need a talk?


it is very XIN KU !
i'm regret to know it !
why did he wan to told me ?
can i trust him?
i can't imagine i will chat with him for so long !
and chat a lot of thing that unexpected 1 !

skim sc, acs gekoramah & bon odori

tired day !!
morning, i go skim science. i quite semangat, 7.30pm woke up then went to bath.
after prepare go fetch ying to ching's house.
9 something, then go to delta Eng Ann.
Delta Eng Ann is damn " HIGH CLASS " than Delta CHi Liung ! ya,,,, it is very high class ! ^V^
during the class, its very boring and sleepy.
3 hour class. Very boring 1 and the stupid eng ann chair not comfortable to sit 1...
we are not concentrating at all, keep countdown for the class finish.

1 pm, finish class d ! so happy !
then we go to acs for the gekoramah thingy.
Zzzzz, no helicopter.
at ACs was very bored because i didn't go into the concert.
watch people fight?
walk a few round, then kenny's mum fetch us back.
kenny's car (Kelissa) it is actually able to accommodate 8 person ! geng, right?


reached home, only left 1 hour only.
faster bath, then went to kenny's house.
after they bath, we went to hin hua school to waited for the bon odori bus.
at last, i waste money for the mgs bus !
kok ann got abit siao siao today ; he was damn high !
he kept doing stupid and funny things.
at bon odori, all walk separately.
kok ann with edmund ; kenny's sister with her friend ; me, ching and kenny.
first, went and buy food to eat. whole day rush here and there, don't even got time to eat.
we actually spent a lot of $$ there !
after eating, then walked around.
BORED !
then met woan tyng and crystal they all.
suddenly received a call from ying and yong, they said they coming.
but i just only met ying. i didn't met yong. i dunno where she is...
too many ppl ! so i can't really found her.
10 something, then we follow hin hua bus back.

i didn't not go to vb party and camp gathering.
FFK again.
teng alone go to the vb party only.
i actually told her after bon odori, i will go dav house.
but i can't make it..

whole day i kept saying a word,
BORED AND TIRED !
no picture to upload !




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FiniSH ExAM =)

hooray !!
exam finish...
the most suffering time is during exam...
i hope my result to pass with flying colours !
this few days, i really not enough sleep.
after school, straight away sleep.
until evening, yong call me only i wake up.
then i walk to court to meet them and played bkb.
teng, yong, april and mayjoy keep suan sia me. ruffa only the good one. =='
they say me, i have ' no experience' 1... fine fine, nvm xD
it was very fun playing with them !
i fall down a few times because i'm wearing slipper.
7.30pm, i walk back alone. the sky is going to dark d.


ACS gekoramah ?!!!!???!!
i still can't make up my mind whether going there or not...
i know got a lot of activity ; if i didn't go, i will regret.
but...............................................................
suddenly my mind came out a lot of thing.
tomorrow morning got skim till 1 o'clock..
afternoon go acs gokoramah.
4 o'clock must rush to hin hua or mgs.. both side also pay ad.
i get both school bus to to bon odori, i might be wasting money for 1 of them.

That was done by the one who not responsibility and the one who care for her bf first.
i don't feel like going bon odori with her and him.. ...

Ying, sorry for the recess thing.
i know its our fault.
when we call u for a few times, u don't even wan to answer us..
we dunno how to face u when the thing happen.
i hope everything will be alright !

still got ten days to go for my 15th birthday.
i hope i will get any surprise from u all, but it won't be happen 1, because i'm the one who plan party and do everything on my own.
i going to celebrate my birthday on 25 july.
i will be celebrating with teng.
who had invited, please come !