The end of year 2011

This year, I have been gone through so many ups and downs..

The combination of hurt that been given from a few previous boyfriend,

Because of them, I learnt how to protect myself strongly.

I have been putting a lot of effort on my studies.

Making myself busy, going tuition for almost everyday.

These was what I had done to forget them...

Although it was super tiring, I must rush from here to there..

After all, my effort it's all worth it..

I saw all my improvement..

From the grade D or E, then improve to the grade of B or A..

I fell down in the love life, but I have been growth up from the part of thinking..

As people get older, they tend to be more receptive of changes and I'm one of them.

No regrets for all the effort that I had gave in.

Basically, this whole year is just all about studies.

Love begins with a smile, but always end with tears drop.

Sometimes I just like to recall back all the love memories,

Reading back the love diary, massage or looking on the pictures of us..

At least they left some happy memories for me..

I will wait for the right person and also the right moment to getting into a relationship..

I was actually lose courage to love another person..

Let's say goodbye to the year of 2011 !

New year, new life, new job, and new attitude of me will begins in the year of 2012.

Left all the sadness, stressful life and hardship aside, be strong and move forward to another the new year..

Every pleasant experience will eventually come to an end.

world, HAPPY NEW YEAR !

A lazy bump

I be a lazy bump for almost a week..

How can I behave like that?

How can I doing all lifeless things?

Celine "wake up, wake up", your headache and sickness had been cured.

So, please back to your normal life !

You even lazy to hang out with friends, lazy to go for interview and lazy to clean up your thing..

OH Gosh !

You seem like a ghost everyday stay inside the house like you are afraid with sunlight.

I gonna go out tomorrow !

No more staying at house to be a lazy bump.

Hopefully tomorrow will be a enjoyable day..

After 1 Year

It almost one year I never updated.

Here's mostly is just all about my part of sadness life...

Guess what, these was the first post for year 2011 and it was the last month of 2011 too..

I do not know I should blog about what..?

Now I'm not use to it to express my feeling on blog, feel weird...!

In fact, here is the only place that I can express my feelings it out.

Just only 1 years, I feel I had been grown up.

I changed, my family changed, friends changed, and the only things that still remain since last year until now was I'm still alone.

these was the year that I shouldn't move forward to a relationship..

I almost started a relationship in the month of September,

I found that this guy was a different person with weird attitude,

I guess that was one of the reason I fall for him.

At last, we stopped everything immediately just because one particular girl.

I will just wish that he can get along with her.

Anyway, It's all about the past.

I had accepted the fact !

hmmm...

My family,

We getting closer and closer compare to last time..

Of course, we gone through a lot of ups and downs these actually made us become more closer to each other.

mum's problem, sister getting marry, money's problem and etc.

SPM?

exam was still going on...

good news was I only left 2 papers, economi and account.

After 7 of Dec, I will free from the cage, but it doesn't make much differeces..

I made a lot of effort on studies, and I had a big improvement !

It's worth it for changing my attitude towards study.

Now I'm just hoping that I can get flying colours for SPM !

conclusion,

In the year of 2011,

I learnt a lot, not only physically and but mentality.

I'm stronger and mature than before, not the small little girl and behave like a "mummy's girl".

All good things come to an end.

Next year,

I will be facing a lot of hardship,

no matter what, I have to be strong, not just for myself, also for my family and my future.

"Nothing ventured nothing gained"

complaining of my life

I have been feeling crazy obsessively busy with like almost everything.
I need times to have a deep deep breath !
KNOW WHY?
Other than the time i spent on tuition,school and so on, i don't really got enough time to let me sleep and relax..
I having tuition from tuesday to friday.
I have to attend two tuition class on tueaday and wednesday ; training will be held on monday & wednesday, even weekend.
How could i concentrate in class every day with a sleepy face?
I always fall asleep during teachers are teaching..
After school, i have to rush here and there.
I got no time to complete all my school & tuition homework as well...
I feel like wanna stop some tuition class, i got no idea which one i'm not needed because school teacher can't really teach well...
Few days ago, Pn uma was changing our sitting position. She is not my class teacher but she damn fucking kepo to change our seat.
Although is not good somehow is still benefit me in some ways.
I'm short , so I sit right in front of the board.

Chinese new year is coming !
not even buy a suit of clothes for cny.
i'm started worry about this.
I having some family problems this days.
last thurday, i cried in front of ching because of this, she stay beside and comfort me. *touch*
hope everything will change.
I'm so fed up with so many conflict and stress.
to people, please stop making problems.

so, I always love weekend.
At least I get to relaxing myself at home although I having work and training ..
Tomorrow got 'ganti sekolah', but i'm not going to school.

tomorrow, I will staying at house for whole day until evening.
I going to work with ying and kok ann at Metro tomorrow night.
Sunday, I having class party at pn rosemary's house.
the class party is for those who from 3 Mantap last year.
I'm quite excited for the party, besides that I don't think everyone of my classmates will go...

5 thing that I must kept remember myself :

-everyday SLEEP BEFORE 11 pm

-complete all my homeworks

-start reading literature book and bm novel

-hardwoking work to earn more money

-diet

HaPPiness really doesn't exist

i'm back to say goodbye to everyone.
i think i won't post anymore until the end of the day finish pmr.
25 days more to go...
maybe i won't be back to this blog again..

i wish to suffer it on my own its better than sharing with ppl in this blog...
i can't stand for it anymore ;
i had lost everything.

: happiness , trust , friendship , times :

they doesn't know anything...
i'm hard to face u all...
nobody could stand on my side and think...
did u all trying to change anything or u all just want to continue like this?
did u all really feel happier ? *honestly*
no ppl care for this, why did i ?
can everything back to normal? can / cannot
nobody can answer it.

or else, i would consider to give up everything and to be alone.

~GOODBYE~

~ sad + hurt + tears + alone ~
i'm trying my best not to drop down crystal from my eyes anymore.




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UnTiTLE =)

few days ago, i just know my kedudukan in class..
last time get no.11 in class, now no.13... my adverage 60++ something if i'm not wrong...
i failed sejarah and pj subject again... sej-20 , pj-30++


21 of may, mid-term examination ! 12 more days to go..
i must start my revision d...
a word to describe,
S-T-R-E-S-S
this time got essay, so i think my english and bm will get very low mark !
and and and!!!!!!!!!!!!
my geografi folio must hang in on 15 may ! until today, i haven start anything of it...
wish myself GOOD LUCK first !
next week i dunno how kelam-kabut how busy am i?
last minute again ^ i scare i can't hang in on time...
i dunno wat to do for geografi folio, if not, now i will trying my best to do it...
i hate folio so much !!!
this is my last folio, izit??


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~ i miss volleyball ;
~ i miss my primary life ;
~ i miss my primary friends ;
~ i miss childhood ;
~ i miss my old blog 'wretch' ;
~ i miss maple life;
~ i miss couple life ;
~ i miss past life!

STreSS

i just came back from tuition...

yesterday & today i stay at home study, i didn't go school...
kinda bored and lonely!
alone at house nia...
this 2 days feel so moody !
yesterday i show my eldest sis my report card... at last, i kena scold and she started talked about my studies ! she was like gave me alot of stress, and i cried out on that spot... this day my mood not so good... i easy get angry , especially the way i treat my family... sometimes, i really can't control my temper...
next monday exam... i do my revision for science only, others i not yet start...

2morrow was our school sport day...
ching call me to accompany her,i don't dare to go... i kena for perbarisan (wajib), but i wrote a letter and lie teacher that i went back penang to pray for 'cheng beng'...
ching 2morrow must wear 'saree'... she wakil for rumah ungu...
temporaily; haven count 2morrow sport day, the markah keseluruhan for rumah sukan, the highest is rumah ungu... i think they will get champion...
hahax! ohya,but i still will support rumah merah !
merah ROX !

b0RiNG

boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring...

i'm too lame?? too bored??

yes, i am...

i did't go school for 2 days...

so,

2 days stayed at house until mouldy (berkulat)...

quite boring...

these 2 days, doing same thing...

watching tv , online, listen song , sleep...

go school without ching also boring, at house also boring...

ching go prefect kem d...

tak biasa without her voice...

she the most talkative among all the chinese !

before the day she go kem, wt and qyan said: tomorrow without ching and dheenika, the class sure very quiet !

hope both of them enjoy at their kem...

tomorrow i got training again...

haiyo !

L-i-F-e !

ching birthday coming d ! next next wednesday...

she will be celebrate her birthday by next friday...

i'm still struggle and confusing wat to buy for her..

i know wat she wan... but now i'm broke...

she love suprise and roaring...

she hope all her friend can celebrate birthday with her !

it is impossible to invite all her friend...

i will try my best to invite them...

i will handmake a birthday card for her...

hope she will like it...

ohya, today was kenny's birthday !

happy 15th birthday to him...

stay happy although ching not beside u...

=)