pine away

Everyone should know what happen to me currently.

1st of july, He left me...

It is truly sad after the broke up, I was practically inconsalable..

The first few days he left me, I was in a very terrible mood and being so emotional..

It's just like end of the world.

Everything happen all of a sudden, you change my life just in a day..

During the past school holiday, we just went for a date and we being so lovely but I never know there was the last outing for us..

After schoo re-open, everything had changed..

You CHANGED !

We gone through so many ups and downs together, I thought our relationship will last very long..

I thought I can have a wonderful birthday with you..

I didn't give u any pressure that you must accompany all the time and didn't let you study..

It is very hard to accept the fact, seriously until today I still don't understand what actually happen to us?

You gave me a broke up reason that never related or affected anything to us..

If u split your time nicely, you still will got time to accompany me. Don't you?

I guess you got other reason, maybe you are fall in love to other girl ; no more feeling?

I'm kinda confuse until today because I never get a truth reason. I made every attempt to find out what was bothering you, but you refuse to open up.

As you know, I will send a message to tell what I do in every single day.. Did u read or u don't even read? So far, I sent so many msg and I didn't get any reply..

Am I silly for still doing all this?

I'm lying to myself that you will come back to me..

When I see the way you treat me, my heart break into pieces.. You treat me like a stranger once I saw you, I dunno how to face you.. What thing make you so hate me?

You know how much I love you. .

Now, nothing left for me..

Just a diary and those sweet msg..

I just trying to express my feeling out.

I hope you can study hard..

I hope you didn't lie to me...

I hope you won't break your promises

Mr Tan, I will be the girl that never make you worry.

Yesterday was our 5 month anniversary if we are still together..

Everyone call me to face the fact..

I will face the fact after sometimes.

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FRIENDS :

who keep cheer me up on the time I really sad, because of you all I found back my happiness..

Sorry for those I treated badly..

I found that i'm quite straight forward, bad manner, hot temper during this few weeks..

I'm really sorry.. sometime I'm not purposely.. I will changed.